Even though you've made past decisions that had to take away one thing to gain another, no intentions were ever in the heart to take away and hurt what you once had. Friendship is forever, and so is love....unconditional love...I just want all those to knwo that life's nothing to play with, nothing to take for granted, and nothing to make consistent mistakes, rather go with life, take postive advantage of and learn from all your mistakes. I want all my peers, friends, associates and even enemies that I love each and every one of you. I'm not saying this in a sarcastic way, more of from the heart and soul. SOme maynot understand why I say this or feel this, but it took mistakes in life I made in order to understand that regardless how much one may despise of another, love another, hate another, you should always love them...Everyone will have enemies and friends, but your own life is in your own hands and it's on you whether or not to take life negatively or positively. To all my friends I've hurt, let down, or let a feeling of betrayal ...I'm sincerely sorry...without the well advanced knowledge of what I was doing I hurt ya'll...but I'm still one learning, maybe there will be no friendship to continue or renew but I will only hold you in my heart and keep special prayers with you...Hate is the most deceitful word anyone can feel towrads another, but love can accomapny that feeling, Please have a special and blessed holidays everyone and I will pray for all fo you and the world...I love you

Special love to my family, my sisters, my friends, my enemies, and my love...

There's days when life may seem at it's lowest, but all it is is another downfall we're all bound to face that we saw with an unexpected aquaintance...Love will keep it strong, faith, and hope. There's one thing right now I have to work on rigth now...I've let them down and I need to show them that I'm more than the picture is made out to be...this person's opinion of me is the most important image I'd never want for them to look down of me...the outer image is so strong to the eye of the beholder...so when it's someoen you care about and wish for them to see you as a beautiful, responsible person you have to show them your soul form the inside out...I Love you!!! I'll show you, I'm INDEPENDANT!!!

It's hard to smile everyday or lay down and close your eyes with no worries under any circumstances...When there's a problem in your life you solve it right? Or do most of us alternatively give up? There's some events and occurances in my life that I may not understand...Why things turn out the way it does or situation effect the way they do...Is it our fautl things happen...do we have a mind of our own that with greta knowledge we know what will happen if we do a certain action and how it will turn out...then again can't we prevent it...but what if your feeling is on the line..can you change what your heart feels? I mean can you honestly tell em it's that simple to just walk a way? I mean put yourself in my shoes...but then agian you couldn't...your not me...we all say that if it was me I wouldn't do it liek that or I wouldn't do that..but can you honestly truthfully say that? NO! because you haven't been in the situation I am have you? You don't knwo what it feels liek at night before I go to bed or during the day when my mind drifts into another dimension...So how can you say you would react in a certain way to a specific situation if you've never experienced it? This isn't what I want...I don't want to ever hurt anyone I care for...because I've felt pain..literally physical heart ache...have you ever felt that? I have it hurts as though little by little a part of your soul begin to crack...But is tru feelings revealed with tears...or is true love putting all others happiness before youself as God has? Does God expect us do that? Is that what's the right thing? Or is following your heart? Pastors, priest preech how following your heart and God's wishes is what's right, but what if following your heart and God's wishes differ? Life worries me...because it expects so much out of you, but you have to put the pieces together to figure out what your job is asking of to fufill...so what's your job? I still have yet to figure out mine...

Traingle-I have no words that can say how I feel about us now...more of pain and frustration and anger of our relationship can be expressed rather than words...We're about to fall ya'll and it's like ya'll don't care as long as you have your "other half"...it just upsets me...cause we can stay for hours on the phone with them and chill with them but just to get ONE damn phone call or aquaintance with one another it's a f*cken problem...SH*T...wus up ya'll? Ya'll will go out ya'll way to make sure your with them..do you relaly have your priorities straight? DO you really knwo what's most important, who's always going to be there, and make true the words you stae each day within your voice, heart, and words on here? I don't know if ay'll do...I don't knwo what to think of ya'll right now...maybe I sound selfish but I only want what we say to be true and not seem leik what we say is what we must say or what friends are supposed to say...cause we're sisters!!! Yet it's like ya'll really don't knwo what that is yet...where ya'll at...damn ya'll I feel left...on stuck...alone ...I don't know if I have anymore faith.......................(silence)........speechless*